Todays project--> Petit Fours

"So...How did it go?", you ask.

Eh....it's a start!
I ran into a few problems.

I made them about an inch and a half square. Too big I think. Secondly...I don't have the right tools. A fork didn't work to dip them very well. In fact they fell right off and I ended up fishing them out and leaving crumbs in my icing. Not a good thing. Kind of ruins the whole idea of making them smooth! I had some issues getting the fondant icing to cover the sides, as well. So I finally just gave up and made the tops cute. It was a learning experience. I think I need to make some adjustments to the icing as well so that it will coat properly. Maybe I'll attempt it again next week.

In the mean time...these will feed the neighbor kids. By the time I'm done doing all that work...cake doesn't look so appetizing. It does taste good though! Yummy recipes, that is for sure! Someone is sure to enjoy them.

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Speaking of the neighbor children....It's moving season around here again. ACK! I've already had to exercise my vocal cords a few times about people tearing up my plants. Didn't we do this last year? Yeah....I thought so. Ah, well. It's good exercise for me. I'm always soooo darn nice to everyone. Even when they tear up my pretty blooming roses. And then they do it again and I just get so mad! Should I be trying nice first, like I tend to do? Or should I just out with the "mean old lady on the corner" bit to begin with? I haven't figured it out yet. There's no manual. Helpful advice would be welcome. Anyone?

Sort of relating to this subject...sorry my mind is all over the place tonight.....
I was actually thinking about this very seriously because it's a problem I'm facing now. (Silly, perhaps.) I grew up not really getting mad, not showing my anger about things. I let people walk all over me. Still do sometimes. Learning that it's ok to be angry sometimes is hard. I might upset someone. But that is ok. Maybe they need to have their feathers ruffled? Who am I to know. So I'm learning the correct way to express feelings. It's very difficult sometimes. I checked out this book from the library called "Codependent No More", and oh my gosh, I read the first chapter and got SO UNCOMFORTABLE and ANGRY. And defensive. Wow. Kind of laugh when I think about it now. I obviously need to keep reading! Anyway, it's been very enlightening about the whole issue of feelings. Having grown up in a dysfunctional, co-dependent, suppressive/oppressive atmosphere has made a lot of the things that are normal seem extraordinary. Alcoholics can really influence your life more than you realize...Sadly we don't really see it until we are already grown up.

Anyway....I was thinking about how even Jesus got angry about something. And his anger was justified. He upset people, but it was the right thing to do and he had no remorse. I want to be like that. You know, do the right thing and have no remorse, no wondering if everything will be ok. I just want to know what is right and be able to do it!